denial. shock. sad. pain. acceptance. anger. peace. repeat. repeat. repeat...

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

defining lonely

I wanted to say thank you for all of those who are reading this blog, whether you are friends, family or people I have never met. I appreciate your kind words and support about this blog. It means a lot to me.

I want to clarify the loneliness I feel. I know that I have family and close friends who are there for me for support, to listen and to hold me while I cry.

The loneliness I feel everyday is a void that is in my heart that no family member or friend can ever fill. It's a huge emptiness and quite frankly, I do not have words to describe it. It's so dark. It's like being homesick times a million, but knowing that you'll never be "home" to make the feeling go away. That's the best way I can describe the feeling...


  1. i am reading your blog with tears in my eyes, i was widowed last year.
    different situations but the pain is the same. i am too surrounded by beautiful family and friends, yet the lonliness is sometimes un bearable.
    i know how you feel. grief never leaves you just get further and further away from the day they died. it still hurts. and sometimes i just feel like screaming out his name, i was so desperately for this all to be over and for him to be back here.

  2. Hi Emma,
    Thank you so much for your comment. I couldn't help but smile when I read what you wrote. I truly think that grievers need to stay together and support one another because no one knows the feeling unless you've been through it. It does hurt. Everyday. I know what you mean about screaming out his name. It happens. Thank you again. I hope you stay in touch. I'll be sure to check out your blogs as well.