denial. shock. sad. pain. acceptance. anger. peace. repeat. repeat. repeat...

Monday, January 2, 2012

goodbye 2011, hello 2012.

It is now day two of 2012 and while I do have a bit of a cold, I couldn't be happier. My life has been forever changed and can honestly say that I now know that my life moving forward will make for the happiest years of my life...because I am in control.

I am back. I learn more and more each day and what I have experienced over the last year has enabled me to become the person I am today. There is a reason why 2011 was the worst year of my life. I truly believe I had to go through what I did, to be ready for whatever is in store for me. There is a reason for everything.

A year ago today, I had no idea that Scott was going to die. I had thought it, but never expected it. I really had no idea Tyler would die. He was on the right path, or so we thought. I am letting go. I am closing the door to 2011. I will never forget what I have experienced, but I am moving on. The anniversary of Scott's death is 1/9 (Monday). It's almost been a year. I'm headed to a spa in Virginia to get away for some relaxation, pampering and self-care. It will be sad, but it will no longer break me.

I am happy. I am smiling. My smiles are real and from the heart.

My heart is alive and well.

2012, I am so ready for you. I certainly hope you are ready for me.

1 comment:

  1. I am smiling for you. What "progress" you have made in a year!! You are such an insightful young woman!! Cheers to a wonderful new year to you!!!