denial. shock. sad. pain. acceptance. anger. peace. repeat. repeat. repeat...

Friday, December 16, 2011

I'm happy (the best post of 2011)

By the power invested in me, I am fucking happy. Really happy.

It all started when I presented at IOP. It seriously changed my entire perspective from that moment. The world was clear again. I could see what was in store for me. I could see an amazing future filled with endless possibilities. I am me. And I LOVE it.

I was sitting in the grief. I couldn't get out of it. I stopped believing in myself. That has all changed. While I am sad about what happened in what we'll call the worst year ever, I think the grief aspect is lifting.

I'm moving beyond it. I am coming to terms with life. I am excited. Where will I go? How will I get there? What should I do first? It doesn't even matter because I have me back.

What a year this has been. What a difference a year can make in your mental health and stability. I am forever changed, but in a good way.

I look forward to an amazing 2012. I know I deserve it. I feel empowered by it.

I will always remember that after the rain, comes a rainbow.


  1. I am so glad that you've experienced a breakthrough. This year was so hard for you and you're coming out on top. You're gonna do amazing things, Grayson. : )

  2. So glad that you're happy!!! Isn't it a wonderful feeling? To actually feel in control of your emotions for once and to actually look forward to what the future holds. I wish nothing but the absolute best for you in 2012!!!

  3. It truly is a wonderful feeling. Thank you. I am anticipating 2012 to be an amazing year. I can feel it!!!! I hope you are well :)

  4. A reader of my blog suggested I peek at yours. It is so interesting to read about how others have navigated this sad path. I am so sorry for your loss and I'm hopeful that 2012 will be a wonderful year for you!